Is it possible that patterns I am meant to recognize can exist without needing to be proven to others in some fashion? Oddly appropriate I should get stuck on something like the King in Yellow…
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If you’re not familiar, the King in Yellow is a fictional play that originated in a series of short stories by Richard Chambers back in 1895 (himself first inspired by Ambrose Bierce), and since then other writers, such as H.P. Lovecraft and Raymond Chandler have brought the book into their “universes”. Any familiarity with my own work and you won’t be surprised how I see the value of writing concepts with a shared Astral identity… and why I’m so eager to use them… especially ones as cool as this…
Of course, this all also relates to both Aaron and the Blackspire game I’ll be relaunching, and so I’ve spend a ridiculous amount of time researching all thing related to the Cthulhu Mythos, and working out cosmologies/geneologies of the Outer and Elder gods for both of us to use in game… and naturally (though unintentional) this has proven to be excellent exercises for me to work out a few issues I’d been having in articulating the Qabbalistic concepts of Ain/Soph/Aur in my Magick 101 class I’ll be able to clarify better next time…
Spooky enough to work anyway… and if it works then who’s to say what’s truly true? While I take the advice offered seriously to “never call up that which you cannot put down” (even if the actual source is dubious) I have little fear in that the magician is always at the top of the pyramid, so to speak. Not to be flippant concerning “dark and terrible knowledge” of course, as I’m actually enjoying giving the concepts deep respect… a different type of sacredness if you think about it… I’m even painting an image based on the original edition of Chamber’s book of the King (maybe trying to take possession in reverse?) on a t-shirt during “chill-out time” with the wife… which I’m starting to like and hope to wrap up to the point of being “wearable” soon.
To flap my own scolloped tatters…
I realize I sound crazy myself when I try to write about it… you’d probably think the same if I showed pages from my actual magickal journal from this week… The whole idea is the work becomes an obsession that breaks your brain… a demanding self-fulfilling prophecy. Easy to fall into. It’s a fractal mind-trap, think about it enough and it has you too…
We never get more than snippets of the actual King in Yellow play in any of the authors’ works (such as the beautiful Cassilda’s song, which I’ve read so many times this past week it’s now committed to memory) but that’s appropriate, as the book drives people to madness (and eventually death) with the singular striking of its terrifying note of art. Quintessential terrible beauty that only works when not articulated…
Now, to me, this is all metaphorical for “that thing which cannot be unseen” and why it was appropriate for the creators of True Detective to correlate the King in Yellow theme with the recording of a gruesome ritual child sacrifice which the characters that see it can’t ever un-see.
To me, this all rhymes with the continual child trafficking rings we’ve been seeing (and hopefully will continue to see) come to light. This is much the same thing that seems to have broken open the week my wife and I were in Iceland (working ourselves on just such a wish), and as of today there was a mass group meditation at 11:11 today which we both also participated in. I additionally lit a black candle anointed with Road Opener and Dispel Negativity oils to give us a little boost. Why black? To honor Saturn (it’s his day), attempt to ground this world-wide negativity, and bind the wicked from doing further harm. Black isn’t even dark enough for this work…
And does the recent moving of Jupiter into retrograde bode well? While personally I’ve been having a lot of trouble accomplishing much I’d consider “concrete” (as a former co-worker once told me “I’d get a lot more accomplished if I didn’t have to work so hard getting started”) I can’t really blame the retrograde, which in theory describes a “Growth Overload” that I guess would “short circuit faulty wiring”.
Jupiter in Retrograde
So… regardless of whether my wiring’s been faulty or not, I’ve decided to just try to relax into where all this stuff is leading me, and keep working on what I know needs to be done. If I’m doing my True Will, then the Universe is gonna supercharge the work with “Growth Overload”, if not I’ll fry out like Icarus, and I suppose rightly so… just like poor Tess in “The Yellow Sign”…
All the pieces that have gone into this site, and the elements I’ll continue to work towards may actually serve a higher purpose… one I never intended (or even suspected before this week) but in any regard it is now my Will to accomplish.
It is my Will that my work serve as positive predictive programing for the upcoming Ascension.
So mote it be.
I’m also pretty pleased to say that it’s now been two weeks since I gave up cigarettes. I’m not saying I’ve been batting 1000, but given that for years I’d been smoking a pack+ a day, the fact that my wife and I both are at less than half a pack a week, it’s definitely an improvement. I didn’t personally transact the coin for the cigs I smoked, but it’s possible the terms of my Energetic Equivalency spell won’t actually kick in until I’ve really cut them fully out from my life.
I also have another talk today with the coordinator of the Theosophical Society in Maryland to discuss my next talk which is actually next week!!! There were a handful of “iffy” things they’d prefer not to happen that ended up in my first round of recordings that I honestly didn’t intend, and promised the TSiM they wouldn’t happen again. I ordered a larger video card and a back-up battery for my camera, so I should be much better prepared for recording my next talk… plus I’m hoping a few pals from the Temple of the Western Gate crew will also come to the talks, and I’ll have some more helping hands (just in case).
The day before that is our next TofWG gathering, and I’m hoping for an interesting night (what I’ll be able to discuss) and the very next day the talk will actually happen on the New Moon, which is also when I should be making my next blog post, so I hope to have another batch of good news on all these fronts, plus the above and stuff…
It’s all building to something, I can feel it.
Saturday 2/18/17-
Sun: Pisces-
Moon: Sagittarius (50% waning)-
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